Saturday, May 22, 2010

Getting a little Nervous!

My surgery is scheduled for this Thursday. I have to admit I am getting a litte jumpy about it. I have never been afaid of surgery. I have gone through it too many times but this one scares me. I know how painful the recovery time is. I don't like being so totally helpless and useless for such a long time. My surgeon keeps trying to tell me every operation is different and I may recover much quickly this time. I don't believe him. :o) If this was not as painful as it is I would not have waited 3 years to go see him again.

Alright! Enough complaining.

I did get something good accomplished today. I planted my garden. I love my garden. Thank you so my my darling DH for building it for me. This is my 3rd year and even though I am still learning as I go I do feel more confident this year about what I am growing. I have planted a lot of repeat veggies: tomatoes, cucumbers, bell peppers, watermelon, radishes, lettuce, carrots, zuchinni, eggplant, green beans and herbs (basil, cilantro, oregano, and dill) I am trying a few new things this year, Asparagus, though it says it takes 3 years before I will be picking this. Also, potatoes and onions. I am going to try corn again this year. I tried this last year but planted it in an area that was too low for the plants so I need to find a place that has more height to it this year.

I just hope my garden does not get too neglected over the next couple of weeks.

Everyone at work is talking about the lay-offs. It is pretty definate that my job is gone. All Attendance aides are being cut. People are already giving me hugs and wishing me the best of luck. I thought I had enough seniority to at least keep a job somewhere in the system but now that does not even look too secure. The talk now is 70% of the paras are being cut. I would have to be in the top 1/3 percent which I am not. I am about 1/2 down the seniority list. I will not not what is happening for sure until next September when they city starts calling paras to fill positions. Until then I will just have to wait it out.

Boy, this update isn't very positive. Time to give up for the day. Next time I write I will try to be more upbeat.

Monday, May 17, 2010

The wedding is over

What a beautiful day it turned out to be. the wedding of my stepson, Matthew and Sara was yesterday. The weather was warm and sunny and the reception was lots of fun.

I will post photos once we get back to Massachusetts. Today we are spending our last day with Ashley and Madi.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Rumors are Flying

For those that do not know this, I work at a Public Middle School. I am a Paraprofessional (an Office Aide). The city I work in needs to cut 12 million dollars from the Education budget. The last union meeting I went to for Paras told us that our jobs should be pretty safe because they did so many cuts last summer and we are done to bare bone now. It would be difficult to funtion if they cut anymore.

Well, the rumor now is that all Office Aides are being let go come the end of school this year (June 30th), along with one Guidance Counciler for each school, some clerk positions, one teacher from each grade level, One subject from each grade, All Foriegn Language programs, one Specialist Program, 1/2 of all Assistant Principals, and who knows what else.

Seniority wise I think I might be OK to keeping a job in thie city but I don't think it would still be in the school I work in now. This would not make me very happy. I LOVE my school. I can't imagine having to start over somewhere else.

I will have to wait and see what pans out. Wish me luck!

Finally broke down and went to see the Doctor

I have been struggling with my sinuses all winter. This winter hasn't been my worst for allergies but I have not been comfortable this winter. I have been avoiding making an appointment with my ENT Dr because I KNEW what he was going to tell me. Well, these past three days I have been absolutely miserable. Can't sleep, barely breathing, coughing so bad I feel like I am going to pass out, and the pressure in my sinus cavities is unbearable!

I just wanted something to make me feel better to get through flying next week and my stepson's wedding in Florida.

My Doctor said my sinus cavities are so blocked the only relief I will get is surgery to scrape the cavities AGAIN! This has to be the most painful thing there is - MORE painful than childbirth - to recover from Sinus Surgery. I have gone through it twice already. Both times telling myself never again!!!

But I have to face facts. I knew I was getting that bad. This is why I have been avoiding going to see him. Yes, once the recovery period goes by I do feel better, I can breath through my nose, I can smell things again, food even tastes better. And both me and my husband can get a more restful sleep.

But three weeks of absolute agony is the scary part. I can't believe they send you home after this type of surgery. I can barely lift my head for the first week, the second week I feel like my throat is line with razor blades and can't handle anything more than liquid food, the third week feeling like myself until I try to do ANYTHING and just want to collapse.

Then on top of all this, there is the possibility of getting laidoff this summer. So I need to schedule this surgery while I still have insurance. Not that my Dr is giving me that option. He would prefer I have this surgery right away due to how bad my sinuses are.

So it is scheduled for May 27th. I should be more stressed but right now I can't even laugh without a major coughing fit so I am looking for any relief I can get. I am on all kinds of meds for between now and the surgery to help relieve some of the pressure. Steriods, Antibiotics, antacids to cover the side effects of the steriods, along with the three other meds I need to take.

My husband asked if my warranty is still good. Funny guy!

The big wedding is coming up

Expenses have been extremely tight but I finally feel a little breathing room. We have our airfare booked (thank goodness for airline points) and we have a place to stay. It was be a bit of a drive but 2 bedrooms, 2 baths, full kitchen, washer and drying in unit for only $59 a night. SCORE!! Now we need a car rental. This will be today's project.

People can be so hurtful

I usually get along with everyone. It is rare that I have issues with anyone at all. I was so surprised to book a weekend scrapping with fellow scrappers only to have them be mean to me the next day. How does a person feel they are more deserving of table space than other people at the same table that paid the exact same price to be there as they did? What makes this even stranger is that these very three people had a conversation the day before about how at the last crop they attended, they witnessed the very same thing happen to someone else and they felt so bad for the hurt person at the last event. Yet it did not stop them from hurting someone's feelings this time. I did not enjoy sitting in my hotel room alone for 2 hours crying because of these 3 ladies. Shame on you!